I’ve been in a crappy mood lately. I’m tired of being alone, but the thought of trolling the bars or similar is not only distasteful, it gives me a slight case of anxiety.
I miss college, where there was ample opportunity to meet people, hang out, etc., often without spending much money. I don’t want to /be/ in school again, but I’d love a taste of that atmosphere.
Something other than my current life, which is dead boring. Even when I have opportunities to hang out w/ people lately (SCA meeting or event, spinning get-together), I’ve balked. It doesn’t make sense. They’re low-key hang with people, talk about things you like… And something has been holding me back.
I don’t think it’s healthy. At least I’ll have something to bring up at my counselor session. Not that we have trouble coming up with topics, truth be told.
Argh. I feel like I’m talking cliches, or just feeling sorry for myself. I wouldn’t want to read this blog.
I’m posting it anyway. Not because I want responses with empathy, but because it’s being honest. This is what is going on with me right now.