On Not Doing

Disclosure: I have a ton of stuff not packed. We have a yard sale Saturday, and I’ve not priced things. I copped out and made a price list for the major items.

Sunday I’m borrowing my new landlord’s trailer and a truck, and will be moving at least my furniture to the new place. There’s still stuff ON my bookcases. But, since it looks like I’ll be doing it myself, I can just dismantle the bed, carry it out, then empty the bookcases onto the floor where the bed currently takes up most of this room.

I woke up early this morning, but have I done anything productive but walk the dog? No. I thought about loading up my car & taking stuff up to the new place… but it’s 45 minutes each way, and my little Saturn doesn’t hold much, so it seems inefficient.

I’ve been crying the past few days, feeling very much alone. I’m sure it’s all related – stress about the move, etc.

I’ll get it all done. Somehow. The yard sale won’t be as organized, because every time I’ve thought about pricing all the stuff I’m offering up, I get knots in my stomach, and do something else instead. So it’ll be a bit more stressful on the day. But I’ll get through it.

And the move won’t be pretty, but it will get done.

And once it’s done, maybe the knots in my stomach will subside.


About Bevin

I grew up reading stories of all kinds, but the fantasy genre has long been a favorite. Whether it's knights and sorcerors, Jedis or Browncoats, I love them all. I wanted to find my own secret passage to Narnia, study with the Heralds of Valdemar, or become a member of the elven wolfrider pack. I'm sure it was no surprise to my parents that when I discovered there was a club at my college dedicated to medieval life, I'd join. They likely didn't expect that 15 years later, I am still an active member. I acquired the nickname "Bevin the SnarlingBadger" from a friend in the Society for Creative Anachronism, an international not-for-profit educational organization which focuses on studying aspects of medieval life through first-person, hands-on research and practice. Yes, for some that means strapping on armor & practicing combat. For others it means studying a particular culture and time period, developing a "slice of life" persona. For me it means exploring arts & sciences, dressing up in pretty gowns, hanging out with other people who enjoy doing things the "hard way." Outside of the SCA, I'm passionate about animal rights & pet nutrition (and I'm trying to convince myself to eat healthier too), I love movies, audiobooks, tv (Netflix and Hulu are frequent accompaniment for craft-time), crochet, handspinning... I've also been playing Star Wars: The Old Republic, since I was invited to participate in beta testing. I love the immersive quality of the game, and play primarily to watch the stories develop. So, this is a bit of me. There's more. Thanks for stopping by!
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